Just done doing my FNCP. I really got toxic in just 2 days because of this FNCP and in our CDX. Ohmigosh! If not for the sake of capping i will now giving up. Pheww! thank god that i'm done with it already.

Currently listening to Fever to Future of Yamapi and Kitty Gym. This song is one of the first japanese songs i've heard before i got into the Jpop Fandom and even until now, listening to this particular song gives me a spirit and drive to fulfill my dreams in visiting Japan and meet NEWS in a concert. It give me doki-doki haha! BUT, BUT BUT! My mom (okay for the ten hundredth time) MY MOM TOLD ME THAT I'LL BE STAYING IN ONE OF HER FRIEND IN JAPAN THIS WINTER and this time, i think this is for real already. *smashes her head on the wall* Kyaaaaaaaaaa! I will be going to Japan this November or December oHMIGOSH! haha! well, i won't flail to much about this, though i know and feel that this time it's for real, kyaaaa! kyaaa! kyaaaa!
*jumps into the nearest building* haha!

Gotta go back to my class. XD

HISASHIBURI!!!
it's the end of the 2nd year 1st semester already. We, in school are having our toxic, i mean very toxic days in Nursing because of the completion and such for our finals and for the upcoming Capping Ceremony next semester. I'm still in doubt whether i will be capped or not because, for the sake of updating this blog, i had a lot of absences this whole semester that got me very near in getting a FDA, failure due to absences in some of my subjects. I promised to do good this finals so hopefully, the results this time would pull up my grades. Oh God Rhenggay. Be focus and serious now, you're already having your duties in the community. haha! come what may, i'm just gonna wait for the results and for the decision whether i'm having my cap for my hospital duty or not. *kneels down and starts to pray* XD

Me and my boyfriend are getting along well. We had a problem that we may consider one of the toughest problem we ever had since we've been together but maybe because we've became matured and more understanding to each other now, we overcomed it. It's just sad that we lost it but for now, it's for our best and for the people who loves us and we don't want them to be disappointed. Well, i know what we did was wrong but it's for the good of many and we've learned a lot from that experience. We loved each other more now and even though sometimes i'm still having doubts to him, i know he's already being serious about me and for our relationship and he's trying his best to explain his side unlike before. Maybe i'm just still scared that he might do again things that might hurt me like before but i know in myself that he wouldn't anymore. Maybe i just need to get that out of my system :p He and my family were getting along well too, especially with my mom. We went on a mini vacation in Samar when we had our 1week vacation because of the Ondoy Typhoon that made the whole Manila a sea with floating vans and cars and people who got stranded because of the high level of water and obviously, i'm one of them :p. Back to Athan and Mama. I know Mama just give herself a chance to get to know athan and i thank my mom for that. Even though she saw somethings and it made her angry, i know she gave respect and kept in her mind that i love him. And i love my mom more because of that. Basta, i'm having the best days of my life with my Mine now. I've waited for this for a long time, already lost my hopes and killed my expectations and fantasies. But fairytales do come true and i'm a living proof to that, He love me back more than i've ever dreamt and now, even though i'm facing different problems everyday, stresses because of....everything XD, and whatever negative effects that people and the environment might give me, he promised that he will be my strength and he's always on my back to support me, and i'll hold onto that. I believe in him because i love him very much and he do too.

i was touched. i don't know, maybe my boyfriend is not always that showy about his affection towards me, we also rarely meet each other since we got into different universities after graduating in high school, so when he do things, even the tiniest thing for me, it is really appreciated. hehehe. this week, we were supposedly be meeting up with each other to go tagaytay, but because he suddenly had a problem with his family, he didn't made to come. we hadn't texted each other for 4 days now and i got surprised when i opened my fs account just this morning and saw a comment from him. i visited his account and this is what i saw:
im one of his featured friends alined along with his family members. XD. yeah i know i'm being crazy but its just that, he rarely do this. I mean, he's a well-known playboy and most of the time, when he's texting me or calling me or paying attention to me, i really can't get off my mind that maybe i'm not the only one, or maybe he's just being kind to me because he knows i'm so totally inlove to him. So seeing this thing in his FS account.... all i can say is Thank you. This made my day Mine. Thank you very much. :D

Its gonna be his birthday this monday, March 31. Advance Happy Birthday Mine. Even though you're already in your vacation, let's still spend your birthday over the phone ne. I love you very much. Fwahaha! Everyday, you're proving to me that you are already in progress of changing and i'm glad that it looks like you're including me to be the part of a new you. *cries* I love you so much and kore kara mo, yoroshiku onegaishimasu.

ja ne~

after watching Jounetsu, i started to realize that Yamapi's smile is one of a kind. i've also started to keep an eye to his natural smiles and laughters that he said he just rarely show to others and mostly, infront of the camera. Also, after seeing this picture, i fell inlove with him for the 999th time once again.
his smile is so precious. his smile is so heartwarming. his smile will make you have a feeling of relaxation. his smile will just make you fall inlove to him forever. His smile is so natural, Oh Yamapi, why you're just too perfect for us. T_T. I just realized today that i'm so inlove to you and whatever your hairstyle will be, even if i like it or not and even if i'm always cursing you to change your hairstyle and cursing you because of you're hotness and pretty face, i can't help it, i really love you very much. Advance Happy birthday My Ichiban! T_T your smile will always be my inspiration. *gets kicked for the drama*

Tokorode, I've got addicted to Fated To Love You after watching it on Mysoju this weekend. Yeah. The plot is a common one that you may predict to other dramas but it has a lot of COMMON PLOTS, that made the story very interesting and Addicting. And i just found out that Ethan Ruan (the one who played Ji Cun Xi),he also played the role of Shen Le in Hana Kimi. O_O. i didn't noticed him, though i got really pissed off to Shen Le and head-over-heels to Cun Xi, i didn't noticed that they were just a same person. XD

RANT(s?) for TODAY!
my rant for today will just be all about GMA7! WHY OH WHY!?? i'm already staring infront of my Television, still not awake of the reality that my Takaki Yuya is moving infront of our television, PHILIPPINE ANTENNA! *sniff* and worst, SEEING FOR THE FIRST TIME THE CM OF ICHI RITTORU NO NAMIDA! mygooooooodnessss! i felt like dying when i saw RYO! mygod why? why? i'm not against of showing any JDORAMAS here in the Philippines (obviously not ne..XD) it's just that everytime there are Dramas that are being shown here in the Philippines, they're just treating them like F4. I mean, i'm not an ordinary fangirl. i do things for the fandom very seriously and i can say that me, being a fangirl of NEWS or of JE or Japan, the kind or specialty of JE for me is really not ordinary fangirling and its just hurt me seeing people who says that they're gay, or worst, appearance of noobs and posers.


Example:
i have a friend in H.S., i already watched Hana Kimi TW and JP before she did.
She: Ne, have you watched Hana Kimi? It's a story of a girl who disguised herself as a boy just to be with his crush/love in a all boys school. Kyaaa~ i'm already addicted to them. I'm a fan.
Me: Yeah. I've already watched it a long time ago.
She: Really? I don't believe you. I just watched it online and you watched it before me? and a long time ago? come on.
Me: Yeah. While it's being shown in Japan i'm also downloading the episodes every week and just waiting for softsubs.
She: I still don't believe you. its just uploaded a month ago on the site where i've watched it. What's the real name of the Guy?
ME: (being pissed off already) Shun.
SHE: Shun? See. You're lying. It's Wu Chun. I already search about him and Hana Kimi, he's s handsome and very talented and Who is Shun you are talking about?
ME: he's the guy in Hana Kimi. The Japanese one. You're talking about the Chinese guy. You know, Chunnie is a member of Fei Lun Hai. Together with Jiro Wang. Xiu Yi.
SHE: Wait wait, who is Chunnie and what Fei Lu- Fei lu- what? and Jiro Wang? I only know Xiu Yi.
ME: (O_0) i thought you're a fan and you already searched about him? How come you don't knwo Chun is a member of Fei Lun Hai and Xiu Yi is his bandmate Jiro?


see? this is just an example. it's okay to be a fangirl, i'm not against to that, but using the boys because they're famous on those times and to star yourself in front of the others. Come on. If there are people who are treating themselves as fangirls and also acting this way, I will not also consider myself as a fangirl. Being a fangirl for me has a standard. I'm taking it seriously.


Classmate: Who's that on your Clearfile Ren?
ME: oh, it's NEWS. My favorite group in Japan.
Classmate: (takes a look at it) They look like Gays. (she started to show my clearfile to our other classmate and they started to laugh on every one of them)

DX

they're too precious for me so seeing them being laughed of by others, it really hurts.
i'm not being too negative of showing JDORAMAS here in the Philippines. I'm still a filipino anyway, but there are really filipinos, MOSTLY and ALMOST who are more mean than me. Argghhh~ just put yourself into my shoes and you will know what it feels. Fandom is very sacred for me. I don't want them to be treated that way.

ja, koko made yo~

i'm in SM San Lazaro yesterday with Cess-chan, Aya-chan and Ren-chan. I get my Yamapi Uchiwa that i bought from Hime-chan and, instead of taking my exams for the afternoon, i stayed and fangirled with them. Nyahaha. Ii Gakusei ne. We sang JE songs at the karaoke, played in TimeZone and Quantum, (actually, Ren-chan and Aya-chan were the ones who were just playing and me and Hime-chan were just the cheerers XD). We watched a movie, Unborn and played once again in timezone. I had a great time.

NEWS HAS A NEW SINGLE!!!! yokatta!! title is KOI NO ABO, released date? April 29, 2009. (Johnny's Ent) Can't wait. @_@ and the Spring/Summer 15sec. CM was also out.

CM!



MAKING!



check out russ-k's website.
i want the female version T-SHIRT of Yamapi and Ryo. NO! Actually, i want all of them. @_@ They're the ones who designed the T-SHIRTS right?. Kyaaa~ Seems like a great vacation for me.

kakkoi ne. it's gonna be a very hot summer for all the fangirls. Nyahaha!
and since there's so many new scans of NEWS for the month of May, i've stumbled upon yamapi85 LJ account and got these funny,cute and drooling gif's. Hahaha!




hehehe. Enough for today! JA!

i know now why, that even if i really like to update my blog, i can't because of one reason. I don't have anything interesting to write. When i've started making this blog, my main reason is "so that in the future, whatever will happen in my life, i still can remember the past events that had happened to me" good or bad is it, its fun to look back right. But recently, how many times did i've tried to click the "new post" and started to type things, i can't finish it for some reasons and i ending up not posting it. I've been thinking if i really have nothing to write, or even if i have, i don't know it because i didn't appreciate the whatever thing that had happened or, i just really don't know how to appreaciate myself.

i can't choose. Just for example, my course. God knows how i've dreamt before to be a nurse. How i've rant about this thing last year because i really want to study nursing.
Reasons:
1. i really want to be a nurse since i was a kid and i like being in the hospital.
2. this is the only job that i know i can earn a lot of money.
3. and i know my mom will be very happy once i graduated. and that is the one of my dream, for her to realize that she did a good job in these past few years of working for us alone.
but, . Nursing doesn't really fit me. I don't have patience, i'm not calm, i'm not that clean, i'm not simple. Blah blah. I don't want Nursing, but i like to be one. But it's hard to choose from the one you like to be than to the thing that you really want to do ne.

all i want is to be in Japan. i want to live in japan in a job that i can explore that country even more. That is what i want. Japan is my passion and right now, all i want to do is to find a job there or study a profession that will give me a possibility to live there. They can't understand me, no one will. My character really fit tourism, my possible course. Yes. I will be transferring school next sem and will be shifting also. My mom already agreed but, the disappointment in her face is obviously registered. I want her to be happy. I always want her to be happy. But what will i do, i want to do the thing that i've loved to do the most and i know i will excel on that field. But i also don't want my mother to be sad and not at ease that i'm not gonna graduate. I will graduate and that is the only gift that i will give to my children. I will gonna be a someone that they can be proud of. Same with my mom. i want her to be proud of me. But arrghhh~ dou shiyou. Like is really different from Want ne.

see, i really don't know what i want to do in life. I can't choose. Arghhh~

............
enough for the drama..

Yesterday, i went to watch You changed my life cinema yesterday at SM Manila wohoa. Sarah and John Lloyd really gives me shivers in my spine. They really have chemistry, seriously. I was just watching alone but i can't stop giggling and being "kilig" when they're together. I love the sun dance, really.Hahaha.

i've been able to wore my newly bought Boots yesterday, i partnered it with jeans and my green long top, which really made me look like a person that just came from japan. Hahaha. I was like a normal japanese girl walking on the streets of Shibuya in my outfit yesterday. Everybody is looking at me. >_> hazukashii.

this the photo of my boots i've bought. Hahaha. I just got into my Japanese Mode when i saw ths. fwahaha.

Takashi Yamashita. no no, he's not Yamapi's relative or something. He's a friend i made through Japanfriends and now, he is always my chatmate through skype. He's really kind and smart. He also teach me Nihongo. Glad to have him. Hehehe.

what else, i've been able to talk to Nadz-senpai again. Yokatta. I thought she got mad at me when she was supposedly gonna have a stay over here in our house last month. Problems always come without your awareness ne. Gomen gomen. Glad to talked to her again after such a long time. I've been deprived from RyoTego for 2 months and talking to her really made me felt good. Hope to see you here again Manila. Or if i'll be able to visit Cebu, why not ne. Hehehe.

NEWS deprivation. I miss the fandom. No news from NEWS from the past two months since their last concert tour. Only, Ryo got involved in a car accident this week, (March 2, 2009). He was driving in Roppongi and because of lack of focus (i don't know why he lost his focus while driving, maybe he and Tegoshi is in a fight those times.. my babies.. *sighs with a smile*). He didn't got any injuries, the grandma in the car that he accidentally hits infront of him got a minor injury in her neck but Ryo already apologized. Tsk tsk. Now fix your problem with Tegoshi ne.

I miss NEWS. :(

but but, I GOT MY WINTER DIAMOND CONCERT PARTY UCHIWA AND CLEARFILE LAST WEEK.
yokatta~~~~~~~~~~~~
i'm really happy, this is my first uchiwa and wohoa, sugoi~ holdin the uchiwa gives me a feeling of satisfaction.......... i really love NEWS *sighs*


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